You know those times in your life where you just feel so EMO it's not funny?

Maybe yes, maybe no. Well, I do. BECAUSE I DO.

I honestly don't know the difference between happy and emotionally destroyed right now. I'm happy - yet I could be far happIER. How? Well, if I were in Wollongong finally, for instance. How many of my problems would be solved if that were to be tomorrow? Umm... pretty much all of them really.

I'm not saying that if that were the case then I wouldn't suddenly be presented with a couple of brand-spanking-new problems, maybe even bigger than before, but it sure would be mighty fine right about now. I dont WANT TO BE HERE. I WANT TO BE THERE! Why can't I be THERE?! Well that's easy.. I have no money! And, believe me, if I had money, I swear I would most definitely be on the first plane out of here in the morning.

I miss my friends; I can't STAND not being able to see them. When someone is your world, and you aren't talking to them because of life's general taxation on the human existence, you have this thing in you that NEEDS them or life just doesn't happen. THINGS happen, but not life. You just get swirled around in this void of pointlessness to exist. And never have I felt that more than right now.

I usually hate that term - EMO. But what else defines the lack of will to live more justifiably? I love my life. But right now, it TOTALLY SUCKS to be living it. How in the world does that work? Well, quite frankly, I have no idea!

I dont know... maybe this is all happening because I just happen to be in a medicationless period right now? Who knows.. but I'm feeling it. And I'm feeling it good.

Bad grammar; I know, something is terribly wrong with me right? There's the proof right there. Apart from the fact that what I'm feeling CERTAINLY isn't "good", that, my friends, is a sentence fragment and that is pure idiocity right there. Mhmm. I know. Bad, huh? Oh yes.

Anyway, so, right now, I feel like I've just downed a couple of shots of Vodka or something cause my brain wants to go DOWN and my stomach wants to come UP. Never get on medication. Terrible, terrible.

Yeah... well, if you're reading this, you should comment it. Cause I'm feeling rather lonely. No one wants to talk to me. It's upsetting. See? *tear* - you need to make me

Seriously, it's not that hard.

Ok well there is heaps to say but I'm not going to say it cause I really dont know half of what I'm saying right now; it's just popping out on the keys. I'm dizzy and I feel like an idiot but there's probably more than one reason for that.

I should go now. I will; I will.

This is me leaving.. bye...... bye..... by...........................e



p.s. this was supposed to be a lot more emotional, but it just didnt happen.